My Little life

2008-08-18T15:19:00.002+08:00

Lols... here ii am posting again was bored today... so now on the computer typing out my life..
Today we begin to prepared for kurimun going on Wedneday... was hoping to that day to come earlier.. hahas.. or later? Lols.. But not ii'm back home..with Sandy Mei Mei and Xiao zhu siangqin :X.. Lols. and another... guest that Lols.. Okok.. Post later since Sandy want to use the computer...crazy over "maple" =x.
post later!~

Count down to Kurimun
1 more day~
Ramsey~

2008-08-17T10:47:00.002+08:00

Hmmms...Been not blogging for a long time.. Guess.. was busy and was too lazy to post :X...
Well..Today suddenly have the urge to post so here ii am.. Posting..Yesterday was fun.. Morning when to school for CCA. when to the henderson park...was such fun but before time is up..we was force to go back home because of the rain. zz.. on the way back home..ii was reflecting on my own self listeining to the usual song that ii got into crazed with... Chong dong by elva.. ii was thinking of her..Is she wad ii said..my person who is going on with me forever? ii am still a bit confused.. ii don't denied that fact.. Someone told me..things don't last at this age.. But ii do see people that last a long time.. Well.. ii guess time will tell me what to do then (: When ii got home... ii called her..she Sound.. angry.. soo ii leave her alone and drop her a message then when to take a sleep because was really tired... when ii wake up saw her messaging me with a sorry.. She told me she was fedup with them.. ii couldn't understand one thing.. How could such people exist.? Nevermind. ii won't said out since its her matter(: At night wanted to go visit Someone in NUH. but end up didn't. got to 888 and was there slacking and my mum had a foot massage.. She message me and said she was going somewhere to find her sis.. told her becareful.. well...she alone of course ii will worry one wad.. that time ii slept late...ii waited for her..and wait till she sleep le then ii sleep lOls ii guess ii wasn't tired yesterday plus today no school... hahas.. Going to hang my clothes and take a bath before ii go out again.. Won't be back till afternoon. ok guys. take care(: as per always..

p.s: Won't be around in singapore from Wednesday till Saturday(: take care

Ramsey

2008-08-12T19:53:00.002+08:00

Soo...long never post le..Being MIA..so yeah Today post because saw something interesting... ii was searching for the topic " love v.s infactuation" and well there are just a few points that ii wish to list out..

"Love is not Jealous - Jealousy usually indicates an insecure and immature heart. Love wants the best for others, but jealousy is possessive. Jealous is reflected in the childish statement, "If he is going to talk to her, then he can just forget about me!" Often, one person wants to totally possess the other and to restrict her relationships with others.-"http://www.knowledgebase-script.com/demo/article-439.html"
Well..truly love is not Jealous.. Loving a person is not being jealous.. but being understanding.. when you love that person ii think we should truly trust that person...after all..She/He might be your partner for the rest of your life...He/She may walk you throughout your life...ii think that is love bahs.. When you truly know that person is yours...No matter.. What you do.. She/he will still be your He/she would not run away oh yeah there is this one quote..

"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you (without you having to plead and beg), its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be."

hmms...this does make some sense..hahas.
Post later guys~
Bye
Ramsey~

2008-07-24T19:45:00.002+08:00

Today..everything when find.. when to soul garden..and now i'm sick.. well Lols... this is what ii call zz...Anyway.. first time when out with my class people Desmond anita and yd~ when to soul garden to eat.. >< ...after that was like wah having head pain loors.. z. shouldn't have ask for a cigratte. >< it only make it worse zz. Today.. ii got to be really frank with her.. and she also been frank with me... ii feel..actually weird...ii hope time..can really... grow us haha..post later..

1 week 1 day~
dreamcatcher
Ramsey~

2008-07-21T18:17:00.005+08:00

Today..is Boring..and nothing happened.. Lols...
tomorrow meeting them at plaza again.. time to start studying.
haah

2008-07-20T08:40:00.003+08:00

Well..here ii am back posting again~..
yesterday didn't really use the computer for long hours..because had tuition in the morning..come back.. maple awhile..then rest awhile..after that gone to M'sia. meet my cousin at 5.40p.m we were consider lucky.. ^^ as when we got in..the immgration opened the lane of lorry for us..to go in... so yeah..after that.. when to M'sia custom..surprised they are not jam >.< .. Lols...before that..ii thought ii almost lost the cashcard.. >< ii guess ii was missing her too much =x..

Finish le..go home... was jam AGAIN =x..so for half and hour stuck there... come out about 12.30p.m... fetch my cousin back to Jurong and when back home.. got back about 1+? forgot lers..
after that..received a message from someone..thanks uhs =x and sorry for letting you get soo worry...hahas..overall that day.. i still got a very sweet gift =x and that ii shall not said wad=x hahas..

ii going to church today.. so won't be online again today... yeah..
FYI: my singtel prepaid..is back to $0 value again =x..and its not your fault Shi ting.. message too much people lers hahas..

will miss her lots~
5 days and counting~ ^^
Bye guys,
Ramsey

2008-07-18T20:52:00.002+08:00

Today...sibei sian lors..was almost late for class because of morning worship...but ii morning devotion was fun ^^...then when to class.. zhang teng broke 3Na8 windows..duno wad they going to do about it.. zz... then after that in class...wei ren keep on shooting bottle caps at me...but ii take it..must ren... study hard..first lesson was geog...no feeling to listein to the "orchid flower" luhs..soo msg..her..she said she was having her maths lesson.. but almost hai dao ta...making her phone almost tio confiscate...soo sorry ><...how many sorry have ii been saying uhs? 5 lers ii think >< then recess time..no appetite to eat luhs...zz... then when bac to class...attend physic..and english..finsih le still got the wad? anti gambling soo sian de luhs.. zz..

then after that got CF...but didn't really concertrate watching..was msging her...but she was having a self-studied period..wanted not to bother her..but in the end still msg..her.. ><>< when back home at 6..then waited..call her...she tound..tired..and restless...ask her wad happened and said nothing...after ii put down the phone recevived a msg..that she was sick...zz.. sick mahs..why go school? zz.. duno how is she now.. can't call.. zzzz waiting for her to sms me now hahas..

ii got nothing to said to you lers..Wendy Ang.. ii guess ii told you before..i just feell...we are 2 different world of people... we shouldn't be friend in the first place.. ii going to distance myself with you annd soon...you will forget you got a friend call Ramsey.. this is the best way ii could think of..i'm sorry but yeah this iis the only word ii can said.. uhs.

kz guys..post tml!~
3rd day and couting down~

2008-07-17T14:57:00.003+08:00

Came...to blog..So siann...so long never blog lers....because happened 2 much thing...happened soo didnt blog...for a long time.. Haiiz...dun get it with Wendy...4 days ii have not been calling...ii need some break.. ii never said we breaking friendship..but ii just want to distance my self...we need to give ourselfs a break.. ii dunwant to be lyk this anymore...distance..ourself...is better rite? kkz.. blog l8r hahas

Just wanted to said...to X3chemistry(shi ting) Will be there always...when you need me..thanks..for giving me...such a good memory ^^...

2008-07-05T16:31:00.002+08:00

my house is getting in a mess now...and ii can't solved anything..i can't understand.. why my heart is so sour now.. i duno why but my heart is messy and sour and alot of feeling combine in it... She make my heart so mess up... Zz.. can ii choose to break this friendship with her.. i already said breaking and ii really meant it...but my heart...is just..MEss up freak... ii wish she will be out of my life... ii meant.. in the past..ii try to concern...ii try to help.. she just won't tell me.. now...althought wanting to break her with this friendship ii still want to help her..ARg... im confused.. real confused... anyway ii might be shifting away from woodlands.. this time the hdb has already put the notice outside my flat LoL... erps. right...now ...i shall post later.

2008-07-03T15:00:00.003+08:00

hihi guys!! now at esmond house typing out my blog ^^ going to zr bday later...but awhile nia then ii go liaos.. listening to xiao chou yu... Lol...by luo zhi xiang.. ii really duno wad to said Wendy.. give me a break. ii had my reason can't we just don't be friends... it's not really partly...because of that matter...but some other matter. you might not remember but ii remember by heart...because everything..you said...ii sometimes just will remember it...sometimes..onli...but words you said...ii really duno.. ii just wish that we weren't no you dont understand...just give me a break and stop asking why... its just ii think its the best way for both of us...

post later..

2008-07-01T16:23:00.002+08:00

Can you not be good to me.?...ii really duno wad to said..ii could really never have treat you as a friend now..because ii know...ii cant go pass..it..ii might be going to zr kor bday...zz..but..do ii need to face her? ii dun wish to see her actually Zz....ii heard she is going...Shld ii go?...real puzzled..

do she like him? Does she know that he lyk her?..ii shldn't have care rite?
because ii have no rites to said and nothing to said.. ii shall wish them the best...
because he is a good guy......ii hope they become couples..
good luk to him.

HAHA...post back later.

2008-06-30T15:25:00.003+08:00

today feel like using abit of chinese haha...
我不想再错下去了，我很痛苦因为我过不了我这关我不想然我在痛苦下去跟你做朋友我很开心可是我真的过不了我自己那关...算我跟你的友情有缘无份吧..对不起..这是我能跟你说的3个words...
LoL....its just for her onli.. hahas...

ii heard someone like you..well...all the best..

post back later..haha

Mr Teo Kwong Mui! a father of mine, and is an asshole! freak. you have no rights to control me! What did you tell mummy when she ask you to paid in the past?: no money wad did you said to her when she ask you if you are still a guy?: NO! hell. you have no rights to control my LIFE. correct ii choose to believe your religion and ii said ii won't believe christianity, but ii choose to believe now and you can't stop me!...LOOK wad have you done to this house? have you ever wonder.. MUMMY soo worry that you suddenly said you dunwant to paid for this HOUSE AGAIN? like that time when you dun want to paid... THIS HOUSE ALMOST BEEN CONFISCATAED! you have no rites to control me! Dun FREAKING ASSHOLE AND put my mum in.. SHE IS MY MUM,and you never have the rights to said and stay at this family NO. you do not deserve my respect as a son!...i dare to said this to anyone! you dun even care for this family! YOU WANT EARN MY RESPECT? sure...dun bother me and ii wont make you! dun make my mum and ii wont bother you. Dun think because you are my dad you can control me from going to church EVEN IF YU break my leg... ii will still GO. you are nothing! you done nothing to help this family or me! MUM it was mum who hold this family! wad are you?! you never done any contributions you nver done anything! you go pray you your God and ii pray for Mine. we never offeneded each other you bring your so call things home.? i just brought my book you throw my old one nvm...ii shall not said you. men.. indeed honour my parents.. but you dad..dun ever deserve my respect. wad you told mum wad..if you have money you dun leave for me.? WHO WANT YOUR SMELY MONEY. go go ii shall not care. indeed!.

LOls...sory guys... posting violent today

2008-06-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

before ii post anything for today...just a short msg. heh
ii guess you couldn't understand, lets break this friendship apart cause
ii really..duno wad to do anymore...to you those words might be joking...might be nothing, and you said a sorry...and simply ii said ok i forgive you and done...No... this is not it..that part of time.. is where ii am weak in a sense those words aren't a joke even thought you said "i hate you(:" but its still hurts people words don't hurt but a case for you is different, and that time.. you really just simply talk too much of him infront of me.? ii duno...bt ii really felt that way but that time.. again rashness get into me...now ii feel awkward you get wad ii mean? ii duno how to last this friendship on. tell me then..ii dun think ii can really stay on this friendship. lets just simply end it. just think as..ii am not good enough of a friend for you. ii got nothing to said lers.

Okok...Actually nothing to write lars...but Lols...wad to write. >.< sooo...this week CDAC reopen Lols....sian dao. nothing to do.. zz.. bored lars...and ii duno why, but ii getting back my stress again.. zz. ii might be buying the things...although keep on saying but haven't been buying because can't find supplier LoL. will try to find one anyways....another thing is ii creating private server >.< duno how to create leis. LoL....ii duno wad to types lers...but school is zz.. sick for 3 whole day! DAmm.
post later.

2008-06-26T20:32:00.003+08:00

Its been days since ii last blog hmms..wad to blog today.? but first.. Lols.. ii should congrats my cousin for posting to become a policemen...LoL didn't expect him to be that...ii expect him become cook nia =x LoL.. anyway...duno why but not been feelings well for the past few days... been having fequent stomarch pain and upset.. zz.. but anyways today didn't go to school...so... yeah.. Sian lars... nothing really to write because there is realy nothing to write...anyway..this week got cf and ii will go to church this week...really miss church le lars.. Lols. ii suddenly think of this topic... and that is gurdian angel... have you ever think really...if there is not for that person will you still be here in your present statues? ii really got to thank somemone...at 3 years ago.. where my life...change not totally by her...it was she who ii came to know christ hmms.. but at least that time ii got a seed planted in my mind about God, hmms... ii guess she was one of the person who ii really grateful most ^^ and that is Sze ling hahas the sleeping princes =x opps... haha..but yeah..at least part of my life to change ii have to thank her..and yeah...ii think if ii never get to know...from her about God...ii might not be accepting God so simply.. haha.. so yeah she gave me the starting point...and well...after that i redicated my life again ^^... but if ii didn't know her...ii might be facing a whole lot of problems right now...as in she help me alot... make an instance this way...ii told her lots of my family problem that others didn't really know other then uncle oli and some others which ii didn't tell in details.. She know the most...really got to thank her for this.. heh.. soso... thats it ii think..i know ii posting..some sian topic.. but at least ii blog =x

wait wait add abit...
this is another topic anyways...am ii beening cruel?
ii hope that im not, ii feel awkward and ii duno why..
but ii just dun wish to talk to you..anymore..
ii knw you feel the same way.. as friends...
we have really distance ourself uhs?
3 years of friendship..is gone rite? haha..
well...that time.. ii shldnt have react the way..
maybe that time..ii was rash..bt that time hurts. alot.

2008-06-21T16:08:00.002+08:00

Yester was ARRHH...Bad...everything did not go as plan. but overall ii still got a picture ^^.. Lols. personl collection heh =x...But while this is wad happened yesterday...morning wake up. gone to causeway pick present with Benson, but end up he buying himself so yeah...then got to the library to meet up with Sandy and shi ting... so..yeah loors..when there to print my things since at home cannot print sian Lols. after that talk with Sandy and shi ting... Shi ting damm funny LOL....keep on laughing at my so call "jokes" zz haha...her smiles very cute LOL. haha...then chat till like 1.30 p.m then when down to causeway...call Sze ling and play with her one arcade game lose to her..ZZZZZ.... How can ii lose ARRRR...then when too see seoul garden but was full...so bo bian go choa chu kang.. and she when to the library to find some books...end up she fall asleep...but watching her sleep she is like so cute Lols....then after that got ask to leave that corner then we go to the "read aloud room" Lols fall asleep again... Lols....then got kick out of the library not kick out larsbut warning Luhs zz... after when to eat the pepper and lunch...YUMMY nice...beef my favourite ^^....after that we were so lame that we took a bus around the whole choa chu kang >.< ....when to kiddy palace me and sze ling go pick up a present for Wendy Lols...go to her party...sit and chat...awhile with the others got off by 8 and while back home ^^...ii didn't really talk to Wendy...ii just don't tallk to her..yesterday we brought beer. somemore >< heineken =x must thank Henry for his tooth! =x kkz...but ii still didn't let her drink that much... Henry let her drink a bit but i'm ok lars. because she can't hold it well soo dunwant to let her drink... So thats for yesterdays....got a picture of a sleeping "princess" she is cute alrights HAHA.=)

with smile and laughter's
Ramsey

listeining to an old song now
Paul anka!
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Now playing: Paul Anka - Put Your Head on My Shoulder
via FoxyTunes

2008-06-19T16:37:00.002+08:00

hmmms...today seems boring count down to school 5 days >.< so decided to blog more...a bit this few day tomorrow going out first to bible studys then meet SL for neo print ><...ii so long never take neoprint duno wad will be the results...ii will be eating seoul garden also then send her back back to choa chu kang to swimming, should i go? Stanley mummy already ask me liaos..but do i want to go? maybe just buy present jiu hao le bahs... don't really know's..ii still feel awkward, but should i really go..? ii not really going early lars. by the time i send SL to choa chu kang then go bahs...ii not going to eat..ii suddenly wanted to you guys a story...but haiiz there is no time to write. LOL.. ii really don't understand. hmms the show the 10 p.m show...is quite nice really worth it to see...will post later

With Smile and laughters =)
Ramsey ^^

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Now playing: Boys Like Girls - Learning To Fall
via FoxyTunes

2008-06-17T11:18:00.003+08:00

ii was thinking wad to write yesterday but it slips off as ii was too engrossed at the game and fixing my computer but... yeah since the game is sort of down i wanted to write something here hahas..so yesterday... was quite fun actually. ii had to fix my own computer =x haha. first was quite difficult then it was easy putting back the RAM back(fyi:RAM doesn't imply me, its a kind of hardware thats controls your computer speed.)so yeah fix it and my destop is now running on 512 RAM thanks uncle oliver =).. well over the days. thinking keeps going my mind...and the word ii that came into my mind : "death" well... why do ii think that? nono not because ii am dying or something but ther is some thing that ii must agree on: "life is not full of roses" well so true.. offen life is not always smooth not always happy and fun life? a question is wad is life? well different may have different people opionion but i guess my opionion is that.. life. is not always smooth it have its up and down. without failure's do you know how to be extra careful of your careers? this is life those without a strong will may just jump off a buliding, sometimes we just face too much of a pressure to force us to jump of a buliding, but with stress you can do greater things haha... "chim" right? heh. well... Love yesterday 10 p.m show worth watching!. healings hands and this show about lawyers, it really talks a lot of life stuff.. well in this show.. theres this character ii really love.. the "zhuang ma's" husband ii don't really know his name but yah.. he's a great person! He always help solved problems...marriage, even chinese because he strong at that...just like yesterday.. he said this which ii think is so right..: "husband and wife want is 2 win if not all lose"yeah they should go throught thick and tides. hahas... okok... will post later... abit long isn't it! anways. its a must watch show!

2008-06-14T11:00:00.004+08:00

Yesterday ii got knock out at about 1 a.m promised to call sze ling but end up didn't call her.. ><>,< when ii woke up at 4a.m my mum still can tell me this "tomorrow go eat jack's place" LOL.. but anyways.. Yesterday sze ling when to the hospital.. Lol..so ii called her after her swimming lesson, she told me she had 1 year to live, ii was like wad! so short.. and ii was like planning to do all sort of things with her.. but that was all a joke.. so its ok.. but that make me realised something.. if it were somebody else ii might be just pure concern but for sze ling ii think ii might be wild and think how can it be possible sort and stuff..ii realised that.. actually my heart..wants her bah..my heart has decided for me is her.. and truly its her.. haha. no more doubting, just her =) althought ii know my rejection chance is hihg XD..another thing that she told me was well...she realised life is short.. and she told me as people, we should live to the fullest...wow... such a "deep" understanding of life huhs? but wad she said make sense.. and ii going to leave my life to the brim.. Going out next week, might be at causeway point since she said she wanted to eat soul garden its on friday...soo dunno whether or not ii should go to Wendy's birthday...ii don't wish to feel awkward...going to her party.. seeing her make me awkard ii duno why.. but thats wad ii feel. LOls.. thats all g2g now

with laughter and smiles =)(think will use this)
Ramsey

2008-06-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

Its been long since i last blog...Duno why.. but ii just don't seem to be blogging anymore..maybe because there is nothing ii could really blog about..There is always someone saying like this:"somethings are left unspoken" maybe me and her.. my feelings for her will just be off because she can't care for it anymore wad more should ii care that wheather she will like me anot? ii couldn't be less bother my her matter's anymore, she is her own at least this few days this...without handphone.. at least ii know.. that.. she do not care if my handphone is being confiscated anot. well.. nvm.. everything is going to end. and ii am going to be back to my normal self. at least ii knw ii can talk to a friend fang pa =x.. alots of matter she(he) knw's about the things.. that at least now i going through with thanksdad =) ii going to cough up an stupid excuse to avoid her birthday party =x even if i go ii will see kk and esmond de face.. LOls. okok.. will stop bloging today. since ther is nothing to realy blog about.

2008-06-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

Yeah Yesterday BMT RWAKs.. hahas. but yeah ii was late.. not to be late next time!! its a promised to myself... ii learn alots of things inside... and ii learn to be "transparent" hahas..to be transparent infront of my CG leader's to tell them everything ii think... yeah.. now whenever ii got family problem ii think of telling him instead.. since he is older i'm sure he can help me go thorugh with it..yeah loors ii learn alot and ii really duno where to said about it.. but i'm going to write my own testimony later its my homework. Must do. ... hehe.. Today saw wan ping jie online ii know her for almost a year.. ii know her last year trip to taiwan.. a very nice tour guide ii must said... hahas.. nice person indeed.. hmms... this few days was thinking about..my old habits.. should ii stop? Lols...anyway going to buy from him..to put in my bag. just incase some day ii need it.. hope it doesn't ^^.. ii no longer wish to talk o her...talking to her..give me a sense of tireness what can ii said to her.. is like no longer use. ii dun wish to said her anymore. wads the use.? do she care.? doubt so... well wad for ii said so much in the end iim the one who get hurt...she duno my feelings she duno anything. she know she like him.. thats it.. ii have nothing to said.. reall tired now..

2008-06-03T21:35:00.001+08:00

Yawn...getting sleeply while posting this blog.. Zzz.. while today talk to a few people hmms fang, Sandy...and no one else.. Fang Pa tml your birthday happy birthay PA!...><.. but ii told her liaos..ii won't stop till..she rmb.. Lols... duno wad ii write these down..okok im bored... write tml..heh

2008-06-01T10:34:00.003+08:00

Yeah its another new day...and i can't believe that my mum let me go to church continually Wee...II LLOVE MY CHURCH XD..really.. and ii love many people there too.. kian leng,kenen,gerad, yong siang, wei de... ALOT more hahas... LOVE them allways make jokes =x. okok...but yeah iit was fun.. II love going there and if you guys see my msn.. you will know that ii am making an effort to go to church.. ii beg my mum for todays service..and ii am sure ii going to love today though my mum is picking me at 7p.m but at least i gone to service and ii really love it... yeah! can't wait for BMT on Wednesday, no is not Basic Military Training, but its Basic Ministry training! WAH.. i can learn more about ministry and ii love it!.. because ii aspire to help in ushering! wow.. if you ever wonder why.. our church usher super pro the lors! they had a big smile to us no matter wad! wow isn't that so powerful heh=) love my church really ...ii hope to go next week service as well! =)

Well...as promised ii brought her chewing gum.. ii have done wad i have promised really.. ii will make my promised trueful to her. heh..duno if she still remember wad ii promised...the avoiding matter.. think it through and still going with it...heh

2008-05-31T08:11:00.004+08:00

SoSo....the talk later become talk Today soo.. is one day after, and per always.. ii wake up at 8 a.m.....me always wake up early no matter how late ii sleep..so where ii was.? arr.. going out with sze ling okok..when i was there is was about 2++ ii meet her there at the control station.. she look more pretty this time true facts kz.. Lols.. because its been long since ii always since her.. long --"...we when up to the cinema, and we brought the tickets Chronicles of Nadia and prince caspaspain,problem is that is at 3:40 and we had like 1 hour of free time? lOls......so when to the library.. and she was like looking for books.. heh.. looking looking then. ii saw a book..for her "sixth sense" heh it's for girls ok. =x girls always got the 6Th sense one...--" okok..continue after that gone to the bank for her to withdraw her money... Lols.. we were in the wrong queue heh...we were like laughing and we even cut the atm queue.. LOL... hehe.. so after that was movie..and so.. while watching ii were like create joke s lols..and said something nice =x..kkz..thats all the rest is not good to find out =x no la ii lazy to write anymore things.... talk later...

I'm back to post Again Lols....
Just watch the tape for last night show... was quite touch..well.. as per always ii found a quote inside... Hmms it's goes "i thought the battle has ended but its was only a resting point, ii will never know if ii am going to win or lose this battle wad for ii put others into trouble" something like that because Sarah cancer was relapse and Frances found out of it..yeah.. heh.. we will never know if one will be dead... ii might leave any moment in life.. heh.. Going M'sia Later see ya guys

ii guess she won't understand.. ii admit feelings for her... but ii just wish to hide it.. its better for both of us.. ii wish to avoid her.. heh

2008-05-30T12:05:00.002+08:00

Another Boring day..Not quite but yeah.. meeting sze ling later.. haha waited her almost the whole day..and just found out that she just woken up.. nvm.. its ok.. ii can understand. hahas. Yeah.. Diaox.. Heh..Shld i go.? to her birthday party.? ii feel like.. not going..ii feel..like..duno wad.. la.. heh.. talk later..

2008-05-29T11:01:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was thinking wad to write for today.. because holidays and ii have not been going out... Zzz.. then ii watch watching the healing hands.. and saw Henry was drinking at after 5 alone, he saw his fellow colleague and they were chatting.. Henry had face a problem, he have commitment phobic and alots of stuffs.. his ask for his advice and he ask him to put down..well the point is not about the show and the words..but the word "put down" is really putting down a better way in life, everytime we were to face with problems or stress, we were ask to put down... yeah maybe putting down might be a better options when there is no other options..its time for me to put her down too.. heh. she is growing.. hmms. well ii once told fang pa that i were protect her and help her along the way.. but i think i should rephrase it, she can find someone to help her someday. and that person is not me. heh. well.. ii truly understand it.. although ii promised to stop..but that is depending on my mind and my mood.. and the supplier Lols.. ii will be back with bad habbits and my mood is damm down.. and when ii can find my supplier for stocks. this time must buy more =x.. hmms...speaking about those.. ii still haven't brough the beer yet. hmms.. great. Lols. talk later then...its a long day ahead. and there is nothing to do.

Can i not go? because ii just wish to avoid her..why i duno.. well..ii can't get it out of my mind... So.. yeah.. ii think ii will ask someone to help her with the booking im not going to be the one.. lols... "yi sheng yao ai guo ji hui cai zhi dao yong yuan" hmms.. ii heard this from a show song which is a old show... well this quite meaningful eh? heh... Sooo...wad could i do next... Nothing HAHA..talk later

2008-05-27T19:39:00.002+08:00

...hmmms..TOday ii just suddenly want to said this duno why.."如果两个爱得很森，分手了就算能做朋友也不比以前好..."Hmms...this when into my mind when ii watch duno wad drama... its so true about it... if couples are not close they will still be good friends.. just like me and my ex. Lols... duno why i think that but maybe because just think of it bahs.. anyways. Ah pa ask me stop leis. --"... can i dun stop its not like i going to die.. haha..post later...STARE at sky first..

2008-05-26T12:35:00.003+08:00

WEEE...yesterday had fun ok.. XD soo long never go church and i really miss my CG people hahas..all so funny and whacky =x. haha.. ii bring zhong jun along and ii think he is really happy about the concert.. praise Lord that he jump.. and worship wow! hehe.. for those who didnt go to the concert i had some pictures for you guys.

Don't be jealous for those who never come we had fun wee XD... i Gg to redeicated my life, ii am really going to work hard to go to church this week yes. i love going church... ii want to be commited!

2008-05-24T08:01:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was overall bad... why? why? did all this words must come out from you... did you really talk to me nicely because of esmond and fang.? ii'm dissapointed of wad you said... why must you said those words.. you cry ii know.. because ii was there when you call kok keong you were saying nothing but tears crying was all i heard. wad is wrong? why you said that... "if i never talk to him,fang and esmond would said me bad?"...you really don't understand.. you don't.. i didnt sleep last nite and you could. zz.. ii guess. you really have a good nite last nite... telling me to good nite.. wth.. lets stop everything here.. you hurt me enough. false hope ii never think of that.. suan le.. ii have nothing more to said to you. im tired. exausthed... you really done it. a terrible scar in my heart.

i know you said sorry its all my fault can it was never once yours and is all mine. ii can't said its your fault it should be mine.? sometimes ii think should i make this decision even if i make will ii really do it.? ii dont know. maybe i wont because.. is too deep already. i'm so weak to answer this question myself. ii duno sometimes you are good but i guess you are just putting up a mask infront of me. you guys all think me irritating fine, then ii won't talk to you guys. you guys all think me irritating even she.. althought she didnt said but i know it because someone told me. she told me she said i was very irritating to send her so many messages. ok then all my fault because of my char iim irritating because you guys don't like me i'm real irritating you guys. just keep all to self. im nothing. i'm just your stepping stone a stone that will eventually leave as you guys enjoy the fun. i'm going off any time soon do you guys care.? this time ii recevied the call personally from HDB did anyone really know my situation no!. she only care about their promises how about mine to hers.? did she rmb no.. wad for am ii to make a promise when that person dun care. wad am ii? am she sure ii am still her friend or ii am a toy that been make fun to please you guys.ii was so tired last night because of wad Wendy send to fang. i know you said sorry its only can help putting sitches to my pain but still ther is a scar that you make soo deep no one else did it other then you. kok keong words or others they might not hurt much because... ii have no clue my self. its all my fault none of it is yours because it was i who started it. and you are just passing through can.?

2008-05-23T08:40:00.002+08:00

Going out soon... and now its 8.40 i'm late. i'm tired. too tired to make you hurt me again... you trust him so be it. i would never care. why should you tell me that you tell him last night.. ii told Esmond le. and wad i said is right. i'm not giving up my habbits even if i give up do you care you don't you care and you onli noe him.. suan le. ii wish you happiness pursuading your own love. ii would never interude you again. ii will stop all my sms to you, if all this can make you happy ii will really do it, and i'm doing it watch me. the promises i make to you do you even care?..all you care is him and your promises to him. ii wonder if i am still your friend. all you know when you sms never one msg is not about him... wad about me..? suan le...ii no longer care. wad are you... to me do you know.? i doubt. do you even read my blog..? i doubt... do you know anything about me.? i doubt.. so many times.. ii try to help so many times ii tried...since you onli listein to him.. i shouldn't have help you in the first place.. your matter with tricia, ii think it was him who help you make your decision bahs. ii no longer care...ii sae so many times i no longer care about you... but end up caring more stuppiid me.. yeah ii really expect no return... but enough of all this...all this are for you.. to see if you ever see g2g need to rush off for BS going FP today... c you guys later =)

2008-05-22T15:59:00.005+08:00

Today overall day was :D okok..not really so happy though... my result sux and i stil can get in 5th position ii will work hard derhs! jiayous!... can ii try to avoid her.. for now.? all she concern is him, him and still HIM! ii know ii am not her kind of guy,ii willing to help her along the way ii wiling to help buy for her things help her settle matters as long as its within my matters ii will help. ii said to her... ii expect no return. hahas am i lying to myself. about the no return part.? ii am nothing to you anyways.

Today ii warn Esmond to not to give her beer ler, not that i don't let its just she cant drink much, ii don't wish she to learn all this at this age. anyway today is a happy day why talk so much about her...? time to change topic.. omgosh.. recently fang just sou wo...as gan er zi LOls. okok.. so now she my godpa strange ehs.. Lols. but ok lars... at least she is really like a real dad you know XD ahem ahem.. because of her words.. ii think wad she said... really tell me alot.. <3 you dad XD.. hahas one thing that she said must quote ok XD

If you never give your 110% how would you know she would never like you...? if you never try.you should never give up.

wow... i duno wad to said.. but ii know i am not the one who can give her the happinese, He can. ii am not as handsome or thin as him nor do i have the age... but i willing to be there to support her... should i tell her that is a hoax about my ex.? will she understand doubt so....anyways just a few person to thank's today and the past few days

Stan "mama" n fang "daddy" :thanks for both of them to gave me advice :D hahas...yeah loors... both give mi good advice.
Esmond: woots Lols ii knw he wont be able to see this but thanks kor your advice oso help abit...XD love you ai si ni le.

i'm tired post later

LOls... back to write more abit... sometimes i wonder do they stil treat me as a friend kok keong and guys, am i still your di kok keong. that time said sou wo.. now change a different tune ii'm really tired with you guys..one after another i got hurt from you guys. nothing of you tell me anything do you even tell me any activities.? sua sua... okok.. ii realy got nothing to said.. maybe this is wher you think we seperate as friend le ba. you guys all like not talking to me anymore.. sad.

2008-05-20T10:29:00.002+08:00

It's been 18 day's since i last blog ii dunno why... today wanted to blog maybe because is wad i told Esmond and fang bah's.. ii told fang everything... first time.. maybe because i think i can trust her.. Lols.. she told me to pursue if ii am true.. but ii really got hurt alots.. and that make me just help her along her way.. that time she sort of told me who she like... ii was abit of jealous and abit of Happy for her at least she can find a person she like. but fang said her liking won't last long strange..--" Esmond even more weird told me we were meant to be together LOLS. he ask me trust him but is not that i don't but is me.. i don't trust my self I'm such a worst guy.. ii tried to help her with matter's Dnt any subject ii willing to help her even thought we are in different streams..I am just the worst guy you have ever seen rite? She ask me to stop, but i told her till her mater is settle then ii will think of it, am i really going to stop. i myself have no clue. clueless person here.. i doubt that she even know. kkz. its time for me to rest. Sick here

2008-05-02T15:26:00.002+08:00

LOls....Today damm wad larhs... i think i going to failed my Dnt PAper.. sure the loorhs so difficult arrgggs.. even social studies is difficult.. LOls..Today nothing been in my way.. Yesterday when to M'sia... Sian the loors when to the supermarket and spent about 300++ ringit. omgosh thats about 120.? haiz.. nvm lars.. but yesterday...at least i got to be with my mum.. she been busy recently.. and i know she is suffering hard.. Haiz.. I really NEED to get good resutlt i know God is helping me.. yeah ^^ and ii got her to support me oso wad. hahas.. happy guy here ^^ even if never stead im also ok.. Hhahas... she has been busy with her exams, i'm worried for her... hope she dun over stress.... yups..she overstress. LOls... i will worried the lars.. hahas.... kkz...BLog later then.

2008-04-30T15:27:00.002+08:00

.....Lols Today is the start of the exams and i am here using comp Lols... hmms..maybe because i am bored thats why ii using comp bahs...(obiouvs) Lols...Today.. is quiet.. at least hahas.. after exams. saw Wendy there with Bingming using Linda handphone hmms..yeah lors... sort of walk with them to 900 bus.. but saw shannon and didnt know shannon birthday is on friday.. well.. happy birthday to him then hahas.. 4 may is her birthday.. i remember knowing her at May end of may to be precise..times flies and i really met her for 3 whole lots years.. ii been through alot... and turning a lot of circle... but im still back.. at her.. duno why.. hahas.. this time..if we really together.. i will really learn to treasure her... she supports me all the way... hahas..even if we are just friends i will still do that hahas...you know..yesterday.. i when back home late.. i saw fangfang and tricia jie. with benson.. they were on the way to causeway.. so i accompany them..fangfang ask me this question..why didnt you treasure here bfore. Lols....ii think ii have an ans now bahs.. that time ii do not know how to treasuere... we steaded like...so rush..didnt know well enough of each other.. now i think i know her well enough...i will try my very best...Lols...but duno if we are going together anot first. Hhaas........ seems like today.. is so peaceful..i can really get to sleep right now...tomorrow is labour day.. so can rest.. abit more.. slack abit.. hahas...kkz.. blog later..

yooouuu fillled uppp my life..
Ramsey

2008-04-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

Lols...Today Mood is.. abit down since when my feeling is not down the...but TOday...more.. Lols. because family dooms day is tomorrow... Ok guys for those who know me..and i told(a few) you should have known my situation now. anyway the due day is tomorrow.. so duno if tomorrow.. i will stil have a "home" anot... Lols.. I miss that person speaking now.. i know she is busy...but she is now my only support...i never think that..i depend on her so much now.. Lols...her birthday is coming... decided to plan and give her something after her birthday... Yeah... special abit.. Lols.. kkz.. exams is going to restart.. at wednesday follow by a holiday Labour day. next Lols..May 4th.. hahas..
anyway i lock up my blog.. guess lesser people will be able to crack in the blog easily. this is to prevent unknown people from coming and prevent someone like "ahem" to do spamming to my blog Lols...okok ii going to get killed tomorrow Lols...ii finally throw out the things my old habbits is gone for sure.. i promised that person to stop.. and really i am making an effort to it.. i guess.. everything ends by her bahs...all my bad habbits, some of my motivation comes from her ii really thanks for that... althought we might not be together but at least i know there is that person who is always supporting me.. caring and always behind me...to talk to me...if she is free... and i will try my best to encourage her oso Lols...

this few days very strange lars... my old sickness seem to be back to call me.. sighness. nose bleeding and alots of flu.. duno if its back again.. infections.. Lols..once i had done a nose operation because of my nose being infected.. i almost died that time as i almost cannot breathe..thanks to my mum i get cured just in time <3 her XD...hahas.. but i remember that time.. my mum and dad also argue.. aiya...anyways things that cannot be mended no matter wad you tried theres just nothing you could do...so its better for them to leave each other and i think thats the best way for them.. g2g now.. byebye...

Saddneesss feeelinngg.
Ramsey =p

2008-04-25T19:14:00.002+08:00

WOW...its been 11 days since i last blog of anything Lols.. erm... yahs loors.. there is nothing i could blog for...and my life is just pure boring... but it was she who bring colours in my life...I hope she accepts me.. hahas.. Lols...de who i think i have told many people hahas...but i do not wadnt to reveal it here..=p.. anyways.. she been there for me for this 3 years.. liaos..1 more month and it will be 3 years since we have meet.. 3 years.. its been long eh.? i hope your ans is yes...if you are seeing this blog then...yeah loors... i will concertrate on my exams.. now.. and thanks for being to talk to me whenever i need one.. i cant promised you a future..because future is full of uncertainties..3 days. 3 months. Lols...you know what it means..? hahas...
i might have really contracted a diesease... hmms.. frequent stomarch pain is really becoming very frequent... Lols.. nvm.. i will have no regrets..hahas...thats all guys. tired because just come back from ICA to do my IC... hmms...hahas

thanks..for being there
Ramsey

2008-04-14T18:46:00.002+08:00

i had a wonderful time yesterday, i when to church at about 11.30.... hahas..with kenen. hahas... after that we play pool and had lunch. then after that it was service... pastor talk about church buliding fund.. ii...was like thinking wow... Lols...but...will i be ever be commited to God and be really planted in church? i duno.. but i will try to work to it....Amen!...but after service.. i was playing pool with wei de and the rest...hahas... playing half way.. then yong siang call over and talk to me: "Ramsey lets go to the toilet. hahas"then after that he drag me away from the pool table... but didnt go to toilet.. then i saw gerad and yong siang beside me.. then they both shouted... "Today IS RAMSEY BIRTHDAY".. then they sing.. Lols... hahas.. i was so happy lars... zzz... i love them and i want to thank

gerad ,kenen , kian leng and the rest of the C7 guys
brenda for choosing the present thanks C7 love ya guys

post later

2008-04-12T18:41:00.003+08:00

I had...fun.. Yesterday at. KBOX. thanks marilyn for pei wo... because nobody accompany me while i go to AMK myself with marilyn.. everyone said go themselves i was like.. wad the freak? but i feel. gulity thoght escaping CF.. zz... but here are some pictures

im so touched... thanks tricia, marilyn n zu xiian jie. for coming..
thanks kok keong, zhi rui, Esmond and Henry kors for coming...
thanks benson and wendy.. for coming too i enjoy.. the black forest cake. and the wallet. i <3 you guys...

ii would wait for you..really wait.. whenver you need me. i be there.

jie, y0ou might not be seeing this.. but i'm sorry. but i will control myself. trust me...

im growing one year older...its shoes that i waited one more year for you...

hahas...

I <3 ya's guys.
Ramsey...

2008-04-09T19:56:00.003+08:00

Finally.. Back home. sian... because can't go to planet shakers tomorrow sad. :'(.. zz... anyways... my birthday coming sooon.. duno anot wheather anyone would want to come if dont have then nevermind lors... zz.. sian sia...... i just wish to sing ktv. lors.. zzz...Today is oral. and i was so scare to... to said anything just now.. zz.. how? aiya's... zz.. nvm.. post later

miss her...

ramsey

...a weetsss...

2008-04-04T15:27:00.002+08:00

Yeah~~... A new skin... woots... nice right hahas...i love the skin. i thought the skin
had problem and so i didnt put it on...but now put it on because.. its the preview problem Zzz but i'm happy to put this new skin.. i love it... describe a bit a me... yeah.. bits and pieces of me.. zzz.. hahas anyway Linda you jealous hoors hehe... hmmms...my birthday is just 2 weeks aways. yeah. going to watch shutter i think.. hmms.. yeah loors. but uncle oliver birthday is next week. hehe.. planning something for him.. MUHAHA... nasi lemark eh? hmms...will see wad to do.. Today i meet Uncle oliver for BS. hmms.. we talk about future diplomas...Yup and i have thought of going to. hotel management and tourism. but WOW. its a big jump for me.. i still need to work hard has i am 5 points behind sian... but i might also think about. going for Marine offshore. zz. hahas... but see bahs. i let God guide me. Amen!. hehe... Yeah loors..
i will really like to go hotel as i think i love to... TALK..hehe talk...i think yeah.. understanding customer needs is one thing. but also learn how to speak nicely... hahas.. yeah.. So tired...now...zzz....

Today i saw you....i did not say anything and i left... i was timid not to said hi...
i know that...you have know my feelings... hahas...

2008-04-03T20:00:00.002+08:00

Well...Today was no different from other days.. just another boring day... But today i saw sharon. my senior.. zzz. which give me a good impact. i remember when i saw her. she is a on fire christian. and i was nothing in fact. now its like the opposite?.. zz..duno i just feel it that way.. well....Today was boring. Nothing happened.. but I was called wad. mei xuan... wth.? zz. nvm. anyways... i really hope her to come.. she.. i think.. some of you guys. who know. me long enough...will quite know her..as in i know her for 3 years.. round and round. after so many round's...i still end up having the most feeling for her.. i still remember deeply how we meet...i remember that day was during my sec 1 years... and i was all ignorant then..did not know wad to do.. and joined SYSF,Desmond they all quite disliked me.. but now a bit change hahas.. but yeah we won silver.. and i remember i notice her.. During the competition presentation, i was like...notice her..in my mind:"a nice girl hahas" then after that was her turn..and i have been memesrized by her..Zzz so concidentally.. i meet her.. infront of my booth.. zzz i ask her for her name..and become friends.. it was the end of the competition and. i ask her for stead...and she accepted it...

3 days after that.. we broke up.. because of something that i do not wish to disclosed...after that.. i keep on contact her. during the december holidays,i ask her again. and this time...we stead..and we lasted for 3 months.. it was the longest... releationship for me then..till today..i still contacted.. her.. and she change my whole life...she was the one who spark my life.. with real colours... she was the one..who sort of make my life commited to God althoght then i didnt go to CHC. but gone to HoGc.. but its still the same... Although now she's sort of not an on fire christian anymore..but i am confindent of helping her... till now.. i still contacted her.. and i ask her to come to.. thats why i told her..she is important,real important.. hahas...yeahyeah... a real important girl...really really..important...

hahas.... Zzz...

Exams count down: 21/-

Well...Time to go guys.. hahas..
BOring N lonely
Ramsey...=))

2008-04-02T19:51:00.002+08:00

Zzzz....Just had Dinner.. and i Am full DAOO!!!..zzz.. cant said anywords.. hahas...but today was a impacting day i love wad pastor joseph has preach today. :we didnt come to christ church because lucky.. but because God planted us here. wow. very impactful. Today He talk about Esther in the old testament. Hahas... but i really did not get wad he mean lars zz... But anyway today.. was a fun day.. zz.. i cant believe that i actually lose to chen ting and xie yu. in spelling test.. Zzz.. now need to retest...omgosh... haiz... sian. duno wad to do.. now.. BUt today.. just want to scrible...since have nothing more better to said..haiiz. talk later. or maybe i will write later.. see how first..

Exams count down:22 Days

i will not give up..
i will really wait..
its true really...
hahas....

zzz...lonely n boring
Ramsey=))

2008-04-01T09:29:00.003+08:00

Sick...now..resting at home.. had a very bad stomarch pain this morning and so.. here i am typing my blog... Zzz.. 1 more week and we are celebrating my birthday... I know its fars but..its chep and i trying to find people.. to go sian.. i really wish that person to go Zz...wad to do.. Zzz... anyways... i going to write later... duno wad will happened next. zz

Zzz...now chatting... With Cindy.. Haizz.. i feel..sorry.. for her..its like... she so sad... i been her friend for 3 years to 4 years..le...but.. i duno.. i just feel her change..she change alot.. Zz..

I duno... wad to write.. but i think... i duno...wad to said loors... zzz.. i remember... saying this.. to said someone... "i will be there".. i always said that.. but did i really.. do that...? i always ask my self that... i am still talking to her.. Now... Cindy. now.. we are talking about school which school... or go which jc or which poly...she said she want to go JC, but i want to go poly.. i love poly courses...because it gave me a wide..range.. but she wanted to go JC... but she oso want poly.. hahas..Today is april fool day and manage to trick alot of people.. hehe. i trick... Wendy thrice hehe. =x.. Haha..Yeah...

Exams countdown :23

Today talk to her again...she told me chance was slim..

Lonely counting down..
Ramsey

2008-03-30T16:49:00.012+08:00

Haha...Just got back from "ching ming" well.. quite busy day. as we woke up at about 5 o'clock and reach there about 7a.m, In lim chu kang. we had go to my great grandmother. Which i never seen her before... Later...got to my grandfather side...afterthat to my grandmother(mother side)... my grandmother and i.. sort of have a v close bond.. i remember when i was small. about 4 years to 5 my mum had a mercedes that time.. and drive me always to my grandmother house. which was pretty closed to us that time... She always called wrong my name. she called "ah jam" instead of "ram"...but i still love her.. she always will peel the apple so perfectly.. and she will always ask me to eat... Till now i still remember the day. i remember when i was just living for 1st year in woodlands. My grandmother had to go for a kidney transplant. i think it all when well.. but..she end up having a kidney rejection and passed away.. I remember she was bloated and her old clothes almost did not fit her...after since then..I know wad is to lose someone close to you...that year was my mum diagnose. with Kidney protein leckage. which i really do not know wad happened. but after listeining to wad Uncle oliver has said. i'm least worried now...I remember that i was also close with my granddad(father side) i remember althought he didnt know how to speak chinese.. but i remember he is a nice person.. I remember a month before his dead. my mum ask me:"ram why dont you stay with your granddad" i re no as i do not want to leave my parents then.. but soon.. he Passed away.. at the most peacefully way.. Yups..i think if someone were to ask me.. do you afraid of dead?i think i were reply. that. well. i am not afraid of dead. because. i do not thing dead is really a thing... zz.. my mum suspected something is wrong with my digestive system. because of my frequent stomach pain. i think she want me to do some kind of test. Zzz. i heard from her is painful.. ZzZ....anyways...i think thats all over wad i am going to write.. hahas

Do you know that i am actually in love with you?
i know you might love someone. or have a stead..
but no matter wad.. i willing to wait..
I wish you to go...to whoknowwhoyouare. zz

Exams count down :24
P.s there is a serect msg.. somewhere. haha
Life is Boring
Ramsey

.....zzz...

2008-03-29T17:58:00.002+08:00

Today... Nothing to do.. tuition go le...then go to eat... actually i sort of scold ezekiel.. i know he is trying to commite to church but sometimes...you still have other friends... Zzz... i dont know how to said him. lars.. Today i chatted with my fav sun nu ^^ she is getting cuter by the moment and i invited her. to come.... i really wish that someone to come... she always said busy...but i want her to come...really... she...is really important.. lars.. talk later. zz.

Exams count down 25 days

Boring N hoping
ramsey

zzz.. Long time no post

2008-03-28T15:59:00.002+08:00

Haha..finally posting was real busy with work and studies this coming weeks. Alots of things happened and i do not know how to start.. Zz. but anyways.. The month of april is approaching. and i am really excited. my birthday is coming.. and i think... its so great to have my birthday as i am going to get my IC soon hahas. but anyways we plan to go to KTV. at chinatown because quite cheap so yeah.. i ask the people i want to invite lers most of them are ok. left my 2 guest of honours. my 2 jie's.a yup actually 3 but jasmine can't come so i do not force her then hahas. but zu xiian and marilyn jie's are coming. and i am really happy. because i so long never seen them so miss them abit ^^ but i really want to thank marilyn jie. she's working and i think she is taking day off to pei wo. i so <3 her. she my only jie that i so called really close with.. as i always tell her we are in the same boat. and as long she needed me. i will be there to make her laugh and give her joy lars. thats wad i promised her. and she done alot for me. yup i mean alot. it really mean ALOT. thus she is one my fav jie. zu xiian in the other hand. is also quite close. in friends lars... she help me along the way with my struggling with someone...and finally i did it and i studied hard.. hahas well.. this 2 jies are my best jie i could ever had.. i wonder if zx jie still remember a promised that she make to me... doubt so. hahas. well..there is also one kor i really respected. that is KOK keong hahas. yup another kor. who i can joke around with. but he also is a very nice person. hahas. yeah lors. hmms...

talking about kok keong he let me remember 2 nights ago when i called him. and he that day crazy abit. so he ask me:eh Ramsey, if i woo Wendy how? i was like zz. then he continue.. if i woo marilyn how? then i said im happy for you.. then he continue: if i woo zu xiian how? ii said. are you out of your mind!!? zz. but in the end, its all a joke and yeah lars..but i dont really like this kind of joke... zz anyway i decided to stick with this skin.. its nice. Would she know its my birthday? i really wish her to know... but.. its seem impossible.. after hearing wad Sandy said zz..thats all guys. short and sweet... zzz

Exams countdown:26 days

Boring,
Ramsey

2008-03-19T15:36:00.003+08:00

Today is A moody day....

Not that moody lars... as in yeah lors after calling jasmine jie. my feeling abit down right now...
Today whole day was like slacking lars. just watch them run like nothing then go off. LOls winning zz. anyways... I saw jasmine Today i wanted to ask her out ask my birthday is coming but she rejected my offer. i thought to myself why can't you go sian.. is all i think. then i follow up with uncle Oliver and Tricia to chat... and to eat there. over there. we were chatting about the camp Tricia is planning the whole Idea is great. real great and yeah i look forward to my CF camp this June. not because of the activities but that i can see uncle Stephen. WOW. although is not confirm yet but i am sure he is willing to share his story with all the sec 1 and i pray that people will come to know the Lord through uncle Stephen. because he IS a miracle! WOW. His heart stop for 3-4 times and survived later on. he was to do dialysis...but later on a few months later he was completely heal. Amen. God make an impact to uncle Stephen and i hope that he will be heal completely. i love my God. not because of miracles, not because of my friends but because he is a consuming fire. he consume me in me. and he put "him"... LOls...Isnt he a wonderfull GOd?! yeah i will sing of his praises forever...

but anyways... i just saw jasmine messeage, i know everyone had his/her difficulties.. haiz. how i wish i could help this sister of Mine.... tonite i will pray for 2 people and its a promised that i going to keep! i pray for tricia jie, i pray that Lord you may help her to solved her problems between she and her family menbers especially her Aunty. and i pray for Jasmine too. that she will find a ways to go for a study and to manage her family through her work. Its a reminder.. hahas

Post more later..
Ramsey

A surprising morning...

2008-03-15T10:14:00.001+08:00

Today quite surprising.. i was watching a show. and suddenly. Alicia talk to me surprised surprised out of the sudden. she just msn me...ii think she pure bored. :P but nvm. we just chatted...well its been long since we last met the last meeting was during her concert which was during my dec holidays she so short that i can't really see or saw her..arrh.. sweet memories and i felt i am really getting old. time flies.. so fast. one blink and i am a sec 3 now. studying hard for my "N" levels next year..

I remember clearly how i have meet up during my primary school years. i meet throught another friend jun leong my best friend in primary school and this alicia was cute and very...er.. wad to said. "shy" girl(riiitee) then that time i always keep hitting her head..then later becomes sisters and brothers. she is my longest lasting mei of all 4 years and we have never failed to chat once in a while.. wow. she is my "besties" mei ever. hahas. always got alot of people woo after her. as wad she said lars. hahas. post laters.

Now... is 3.40p.m.. staying at home slacking... Lol... out of the sudden.. i when to see Cindy's blog and i notice that she change a lot. as if i did not know her anymore...everyone change. that is so true. 4 years ago and 4 years now everyone change. no matter how many years you know that person. he/she will change. but its not always change for the better. but most likely changing to bad.
So many things happening. and i duno if sometimes i should write it down here... some serect are never to be reveal and then time will make it disapear. as if nothing happened... but.. there will be a scar right.? a scar to make you remember everything ii wish that i am in a dream now. a dream that all this things never happened.. i wish that i would not be shift away.. i just recevied the called...again.. it was from the HDB.. well. they said they might take action. but what am i supposed to do. my dad just dont want to paid for the housing loan. what can i do.
NOTHING. i feel so helpless. i feel like everything is not going what i expected.
"life is not a bed of roses, we have ups and down" this is so true... sad.

i might be posting later. Lols

What am i today?
Ramsey

...Fun Day!

2008-03-14T21:36:00.001+08:00

Today wake up early.. to meet up with Uncle Oliver at 10a.M but end up Uncle Oliver wake up late so was to shift at 10.30a.M but the time i reach there was about 10.15...I was queuing up to buy my breadfest and Uncle Oliver was behind me. Lols... after brought my things. We chatted Lot's of stuff and Yeah... HAHA..Today was fun. waited for nixion and his brother for about 1 hours later. and they promised us to treat us lunch(end up nothing) but today uncle Oliver shared with us alot of things like actually the computer is not complicated as it may seem! WOW. and we chatted lots of things which. I can't really remember it all. Later on, I meet Edmund(Ding) at school we were taught how to worship God and how to Lead a proper worshipped. I wonder when that day will come for me. overall Today was quite fun, although my life might be quite boring to you to who reading my blog but to me. I think I have put life to my fullest. well Today i want to write down in this blog something that I hope I can remember it..

There's was once where I told my friend. who drink with me during Last year chinese New year, because... I think will post tomorrow. let this tangle a bit. giving you guys to read on. I know my blog is quite boring. but whose Blog can you tell me is not boring at all? hhaha.

Overcoming all obstacles,

Ramsey

tired..

2008-03-13T08:15:00.001+08:00

Another tired day. haiz...feel like want to sleep but cant seem to get back to sleep....Today might be going out...Post later...zzz

tired,

Ramsey

another day~

2008-03-12T08:53:00.000+08:00

Lols... 8.53a.m and i am preparing my self. to go out. wee... going bbq later on!.. hahas. Love it.. yeah church change my world! hahas. Last time During my march holidays, i be staying at home slacking.. wow.. now is a whole totally different story! i love my CG.. as we always help each other when i need. and today we got a bbq event wow!. hahas. i love my CG really love it.. Yeah.

Lols.. now lets chat of other things. Lols..pl0x.. Hmms..recently been thinking of breaking friendship with someone. Lols. i doubt that she even care if we are friends or not friends. but...she change alot. I admit. that day. i forgot to.. that she can access something yet i still show. her. and end up. vugular words float on my msn. she change. Lols. i mean as in really change. i always said she change. but really she change. as seen i might not know her again. Lols. yeah. meeting them at MRT station. woo... What event will we have? been thinking all day. thursday going to see the movie :passion of christ! WOW!. yeah thats all write later. will show pictures. Hmms. if i can get some.

Lols....finally backs from the BBQ. actually not consider a BBQ.. hahas. as the rains keep on pouring.. and we decided to play bowling.. *yawn* its late. time to sleep good night.. Will post Tomorrow.

Trying to Overcoming all obstacles

Ramsey

weee...

2008-03-10T10:15:00.000+08:00

its almost been one year since i came to Hogc(heart of God church) and it totally change my life. i loved the people over there, as i had never felt so warm loving people in my house! wow. i remenber the first time i came to church as a new christian that time i do not have faith in going to church. as i always had excuese not going to church like "my mum want to go out with me" and so on.. recently ii been to a new CG(cell group) and meet a lots of new friends Kian leng, kenen and leonard. the one who i will always remenber to kenen and leonard! well. they are like my church besties and are like my brothers WOW. which we can always joke with others about! hahas. kian leng is the one i really want to thank too! wow. i can said that. he impacted my life! he told me lots of things. and i love he's challenge!

Yesterday night, i called him and ask. about me going frequently into services because of my PO. and well. wad he said ignited me! and i beginning to pray that i may go to church this week! WOw. i love church, i love my friends. church now becomes my 2nd home a home that i really want to be commited into Amen! i am really proud to said that i love my church! and i going to prove it by actions not by words!. yeah. wow.. Yesterday service is a powerful one.. wow. and yesterday follow-up was lead by kian leng thanks men!. hahas

John chap 3:16
For God so love the world that he gave his one and only son that Whoever believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life!

Yeah. thanks kl.

overcomer
Ramsey,

another boring day...

2008-03-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

It's another boring day alone at home, bored...anyway i wrote this blog because of boredom.. and to improved on my English. well yesterday was ok in CF. nothing happened laugh out loud. this week is the start of the holidays. bored very bored....This few days was quite ok for me. Lols... nothing to do at school holiday homework have just came in...i dont think there is lot of work.. but this holiday is so boring. Lols... anyway i am just a bored person so..bored is nothing already Lols... i have nothing to write here. do not know why...but will she see this blog.?

a new blog...

2008-03-02T10:36:00.000+08:00

While...thanks Sandy for partly helping me with the blog.. Lols. i guess no one be able to read this blog since..i'm only write for the sake of fun...It's been long since i wrote a blog.. and i totally do not know wad to do. so thanks Sandy mei =)..hahas...yeah lors. erm...i just suddenly have the urge to write a blog. since my fingers. very itchy..-_-" hahas...thats all. Post later =)

Lols....edited this post...to write more...I admit my life is boring Lols.. because....just boring lOhs... haahas....last friday.. was some sort of wreck... that day have CF...and nicolahs told me:"Today is the time men, time to lead" Lols....ii was thinking to myself.. i had to sing...Lols....but overall.. i totally wrecked today worship... i was so upset about me wrecking the whole worship...nixion came over and said...its ok but overall.. i have failed lors...but news of happiness came...Dingo(Edmund) my senior. told me..i going to be train to help!!!! wow. hahas..and i going to be trained next week. well...im so happy for it...hahas.. but overall that Friday was. Nothing much.. hahas.

Saturday came, and i had to wake up early as i had tuition... Haiz. another day of boring tuition which i had to bear till 12.15 noon... "sianz" was the only word i could think of that time...So bored by the teacher teaching. I especially hate English...i do mean by really hate it.. but i just could not get my grammar right.. Damn. anyone got tips for improving English. please tell me I NEED IT....that afternoon i slept throught it...couldn't get to any sleep.. soon my parents was sleeping and i was watching the videos "gong zhu xiao mei" no bad..the show.. then i saw my handphone ringing..its was..her.. Lols...ii really hated. my self. for hurting that particular person in the past. now. i like her.. but. is the opp. direction...haiz...but i thought i was dreaming. she was willing to gave me a chance...yeah.. next time then tell you all the story haha.
Time to Logoff from blog. yeah yeah i know my life is boring is it.?

My little life
Ramsey=)